The gritty details of how we got here

I am sure many of you are trying to figure out what the hell we are doing. I have been wanting to write a post for awhile about what we are doing and how we managed to get here. Just so you know we didn’t plan for any of the current situation we are in.

When we left Fort Worth we had planned on finding land near The Farm in Tennessee to start our own intentional community, “The Elysian Fields.” Josh was going to be an apprentice at the Ecovillage Training Center while we scoped out land. We had more than enough money to sustain us and make a down payment on land. Well we had a great plan but the timing was off. We could tell as the summer went on that it wasn’t time for land yet and there were still connections we needed to make that we hadn’t yet, etc. We stayed at the ETC for August while we tried to figure out what to do next. We searched high & low for a camper because we needed a place to live and be as a family. Then I saw an ad about the Twin Oaks Community Conference. It was a chance to meet people and network with other communities. Exactly what we were missing. So without knowing what was going to happen next we packed what we thought we could use or need into our truck and headed to Virginia while still looking for a camper. On day 3 of the trip I planned on stopping in Richmond to look at a camper, which is the one we bought. It is a great fit for us and everything worked in it. Once we were at the conference we sorta felt lost. Like we were ahead of ourselves but couldn’t place what we were supposed to do. Since we had to get the trailer plated I researched where was the best place to be our home base and get our licenses and plates done. This brought us back to The Farm. By this point we needed money to cover this extra cost so I started selling stuff. Stuff I didn’t want to sell. You must understand that this was not the first time I was cutting ties with my old life and ways of thinking. But we figured, why pay for a storage of stuff I can’t use while trying to find our path on this road to The Elysian Fields? In the end most of it could be replaced at some point. I hate myself for this part of the journey but I learned a lot about myself and am very thankful I have such a forgiving & supportive spouse. So we parked the camper at the Unity Center on The Farm for a few weeks while Josh Wwoofed to pay for us being there and I sold our stuff. Once we got our plates we knew we needed to be going. There were of course a few items like pictures that had to go somewhere so that is what led us to Indiana next. My mom and stepdad graciously allowed us to come there and stay for a few weeks while we organized the camper. They also allowed us to store several items there. Those three weeks were rough and we were working with only a few dollars to get us through. I was able to sell a few hats to get us some gas money but overall fear was trying to take me over. I have learned a lot about mediation and gratitude over the last couple of months so this was just another part of the spiritual journey I was personally on and I knew it. I recently stated on our Facebook how this road we are on is not just to share love, knowledge & community, but it is also a spiritual one. Although, I am not an eloquent enough writer to fully put into words exactly what I mean by that concept. But, there is more than what meets the eye to everything in this world. Everything is “spiritual” in it’s own right it seems. Anyway, for whatever reason, I pulled a Lindsay and jumped the gun on the Universe and went to Branson before what seems we were supposed to because my friend had a three day weekend and for whatever reason I thought that was just a good stop on our way West. As soon as we arrived things didn’t feel right. One thing Josh & I have learned is to communicate a little better. Although my stubbornness had screwed up several things at this point. We have to be on the same page and the second day we were there we could tell we were in the wrong place. So we both meditated and asked where are we supposed to be. Arkansas is what came to my mind and the names of our friends, who lived in Arkansas, is what came to Josh. 🙂 So I immediately text them and told them we wanted to visit them next. Which if I hadn’t rushed things we had planned to go there before Branson originally so it was funny (not funny haha though) that that’s where we needed to be. They said, “come on!” So we stayed one more day and then headed to Arkansas. It was like the moment we left Branson a cloud had lifted. It had been nice seeing my goddaughter but it just wasn’t the right time. Once we arrived in Paragould I felt a peace that was radiating so much that my heart was light and I was able to slow down and be me for a moment. It is wonderfully strange how things have progressed in spite of irresponsible “jumping the gun.”

So now you can understand why I have started using my hobbies and interests to try and make some cash. This wasn’t part of the plan. The Universe had a different plan than we did. We are not trying to not work for a living. We know we are meant to make this community. So we are trying to be more in tune with things & let things ride out.

We got some advice that mentioned how we may need help from people who actually understand us and our dream and could help support us over the winter months. She gave me some suggestions on how to go about that but nothing has come from it. I think it is due to the fact that I haven’t followed through throughly on my end and hadn’t written this post yet. After talking about this idea with others I realized that we really aren’t any different than missionaries. People support them all the time for the sake of religion. We have been helping families, spreading love, and learning about so many things, that I see us as missionaries to all those that are lonely, in need of community and just generally we can bless with our presence and energy. Those who don’t even realize they long for community, but are looking for it in all the wrong places. They just need the knowledge to get to where they need to be.

Thank you for following our journey. It isn’t what we planned it to be but we are now paying, more careful attention, and are trying to get on track with our journey. It seems things are moving in the right direction now that I have taken a few steps back and learned a few things. We have received a couple of orders for tie dye shirts so I am hoping that will continue since the shirts help us make the most profit for the time put into it. We want to be able to practice our crafts and to learn things about sustainability, permaculture, and community and just be where we are at instead of always trying to just make another $20 to scrape by. We are currently talking to an intentional community about going there next but we don’t know where we are headed for winter yet. I am convinced that we will know when we are supposed to know. Lol.

If you have any questions feel free to comment or email. 🙂



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